Rants


    Lately…no scratch that…for a very long time internet at my place has been the shittiest service I’ve paid for. I am currently running on cable high speed internet, but the problem is that, on most days, it isn’t running at all. It isn’t even walking…it just simply isn’t connecting.

    As a result of this poor quality service that has been put up with for awhile, I’ve been seriously thinking about switching to DSL. My main concern with doing this though, is the fact that the DSL highest speed that they offer is still slower than the cable. When the cable is working, it works great. But it just doesn’t work consistently enough. But if I do switch…am I going to be just as frustrated with half the “up to” download rate? Not to mention the costs of getting the new service (and the necessity to have a jack put in). So I’m at a bit of a stalemate…I can’t decide what I want to do. Any thoughts anyone as to my predicament?

    UPDATE:I’m beginning to think that I’m doing something simply stupid…a minor detail to all this that I can’t remember (c’me on it’s been over a year since I’ve set this kind of shit up)…and as I result I’m fucking up my already shitty service and making it shittier…hmmm. I’ll figure it out eventually…like the day before I move out most likely. Hah!

    I’ve never been very good about keeping up to date on the current events and happenings of the world. I’m horrible about reading/watching the news. In fact, I find it down-right depressing. Early on I made the decision not to read the news everyday, because I found it too overwhelming most of the time. Call me sensitive, but that’s how it was. Lately though, my ignorance has been bashing me in the head as I realize how behind the times and current events I really am. Politics have always been beyond me, it’s a subject I have never really connected with, but in the last few years or more, I have been unnerved by everything going on in the world…or what I gathered from glimpses here and there and conversations between friends. Somehow the news always registers better for me, when filtered through friends and family. Perhaps it is simply the fact that they can respond, whereas the newspaper just isn’t going to hold my hand through it all…so to speak.

    As a result of this slow paced consciousness of mine, I have been making an effort to read more news when I have the chance. But it still makes me despondent and frustrated. I just don’t understand why people do the things they do. I’m so frustrated with society…and not simply foreign ones, but my local or home society as well. I don’t mean to say that I think I’m an angel, a perfect, proper human being, but I would like to think that we could improve upon our pettiness as a collective. It just never seems to happen, nor does it ever seem likely. Instead I feel as though we are more likely to give in to the mob-madness and mourn our sheepishness in silence, behind those ever closed doors of our homes…is it just me?

As I go over the huge list of homework I have for this weekend and omit check-marks next to them (because I have yet to do anything this weekend), I can’t help but wonder if this insistence on waiting until the last minute is more than just laziness. Of course it is. I’m not doing it, because I have no motivation to. My logical brain keeps pressing an alarm, which sounds in my head, telling me it’s time to get on the ball, suck it up, and just do my homework. But somehow, my hand just finds the snooze button over and over and over again. So here I am, posting on everything I can, so I feel a little less guilty about ignoring my responsibilities.

(OMG huge rant, feel free to skip this if you like, I won’t take it personally.) (more…)